ANXIETY
Dirty little word...I know. I have been struggling with this problem my entire life and it wasn't until I almost got divorced that I realized I did in fact have a problem.
I consider myself a "runner", I love running, the sound of your feet hiting the pavement, the sweat dripping of your face, your heart pounding, pushing myself to go just a little farther than yesterday. I also love to RUN from my problems. I don't like confrontation so I just "run" away. Example, When I lived in Utah one of my best freinds came to be my roommate. We were so close and for a few months it worked out. Instead of facing things head on with her, I "ran" to a new apartment and lost one of my best friends.
When Jake and I met it was shortly thereafter that I became pregnant. Go ahead and think what you want to think but if I could do it all over again I would do it exactly like I did. When
I was pregnant for the first time in years I could breath. It was like this weight had been lifted and I could truly enjoy life. I fell in love, and for those nine months everything was perfect. I have now come to learn that the chemicals in my body were off and my hormone levels shifting when I was pregnant made the chemicals normal.
I was pregnant for the first time in years I could breath. It was like this weight had been lifted and I could truly enjoy life. I fell in love, and for those nine months everything was perfect. I have now come to learn that the chemicals in my body were off and my hormone levels shifting when I was pregnant made the chemicals normal.
Fast forward two years to this summer. I was at an all time low. I felt like I was drowning. I felt like a bad mother because I couldn't handle every day things. I was a horrible wife, which made my husband want to be home less and less. It wasn't until I sat in a room with my doctor that he said my entire life would change with one little pill. (Well two little pills....one is for the really bad days) I will happily announce that little baby pill saved me, and my marriage. I wake up everymorning without the chest pain or aches. I can laugh when Kenzie is being her normal stubborn self and I can let loose and have fun with my husband.
Anxiety is real....it doesn't make you any less of a person if you need help. Life is so hard and overwhelming and just too much at times and if a little pill can make it easier for you then do it. Talk to your doctor and help yourself.
I wanted to write about this because my friend wrote about her anxiety issues in one of her post and it made me want to come forward too. If you have any questions, you can ask away and I would love to talk about it.
