Time to get personal

This little blog is really my only place to write down my feelings and usually I try to make it super positive because who really wants to read somebody complaining about their life drama? Today my friends is going to be negative nelly day so if your not in a mood to read a vent session I suggest you hit the little arrow back button quickly!

Do you ever have those days where you literally want to scream as loud as you can and then just ball your eyes out? Today was that day to a T for me. It started off by getting NO sleep last night because one...my boob was killing me (yea totally time for a new bra ASAP one girl is not getting any support) and two my daughter was screaming because she wanted her daddy. This just happens to be Jakes week out of town AWESOME! So Kenzie and I had big play date plans set for today so instead of taking her to daycare I put her in my bed with the TV on while I took a shower. Our master bathroom is connected to our closet and its not unusual for Kenzie to go in the closet and try on my shoes (it makes me so happy when she does that I think its really cute). Most of you mommies know that there is a quiet and a too quiet with children and well Kenzie was WAY WAY WAY TOO QUIET! I got out of the shower and looked in my closet and there she was with her sunblock bottle and sunblock all over the floor, her ENTIRE body, and a pair of $100.00 shoes that I have yet to wear! When she see's that im upset she gets this little grin on her face and says...Where's Daddy? AHHHHHHHHHH

Then we go on our play date and the kids are playing in the sprinkler out front. Kenzie went around the corner of the house for 2 SECONDS and in those two short seconds she managed to paint a section of Sherrils brown house white! 2 SECONDS AHHHHHHHHHHHH

After getting home we walked over to Nicole's house because she just found out she is having a BOY!!!! Of course I want to go see my best friend so while we are talking about all things baby and my big plans for her shower my daughter manages to hit Luke multiple times and then as im repremanding her hits me in my bad boob with a freaking xbox game case! AHHHHHHHHHH

Time out is a no go because suprise suprise she likes it in time out AND puts herself in it without being in trouble and when I spank her booty it doesn't phase her at all. I was warned about terrible two's and im not kidding they are horrible and the worst part is I can be so mad and all she has to do is walk up to me and say "Mommy hold you hold you" Or "Mommy I love you" Or "Cuddle Mommy" and I melt! Tonight she was giving me a hard time about going to bed and seriously I was so over the day but while we were singing she started singing with me the lullabye that my mom wrote and sung for me while I was a child. Every ounce of anger and frustration was gone as she was looking up at me singing with me.

After she went to bed I watched yesterdays SYTYCD. Kents last dance was about two best friends and one of them got stabbed in the back. So this has happened to me recently in and it sucks. I sat on my couch watching this dance crying like a little baby. No joke fetal position and all. Seriously why do girls have to be such bitches! I feel like I go above and beyond for my friends and this person just made me feel awful. I get so sick thinking about it. Jake has hated her for years and I stuck up for her! My husband and I have fought about her hundreds of times and I wouldn't take his advice. UGH I feel like an idiot and it sucks!

So im glad I vented about life please don't think I hate being a mom because I honestly love it more than anything in the world. My daughter is so amazing and I would not change one little part of her (even the attitude) if I could.