My Jake

So I was reading over my posts and I realized all I ever talk about is Kenzie, Panda, and myself. So this post is to my amazing FIANCE!

It is amazing how when you least expect it something amazing happens in your life. I was in no way shape or form looking for anything with anybody in fact I was literally dragged out of my house because Nicole (friend from work) said that staying at home feeling sorry for myself was starting to piss her off. When I saw him for the first time I was amazed and I had to know him. Well that night I gave him my number and we have been attached at the hip ever since.

We all know Kenzie was quite a surprise and I was so scared that Jake was going to leave but that morning when I took the second test and those two pink lines showed up, I started yelling at him to wake up and when he did I was sobbing. He came over to me, wrapped his arms around me and told me everything was going to be ok. Through the whole pregnancy (I was a CRAZY preggo lady at times) he never once raised his voice, he went to coldstone every day so I didn't look like the fat idiot, he told me I was beautiful everyday and when I got my first stretch mark he told me twice every day.

Jake is not one to express his feelings and that really bothered me. I need to be told that I am loved and I need to know why I am loved. Jake noticed it bothered me so even though it was hard at first he opened up to me and now every day at least ten times a day I am told I am loved and more importantly he tells our daughter she is loved.

Jake is my everything...I am so madly in love with him. He is my best friend, he is amazing with my family (I love them but we Brodeurs can be silly/crazy/gross all at once) and he is an amazing father.

Baby, I love you more than anything in this world thank you for being you and thank you for helping me find myself again, you are my everything and I'm so excited to be your wife this summer.

Teething

I have heard about the hell teething brings to little babies but I never really thought anything about it. I was warned about how horrible child birth was and I'm not gonna lie...mine was pretty easy compared to most. My child doesn't cry when she gets shots, she is learning to crawl so there are lots of head bangs and she doesn't cry for those either. Well let me tell you teething is HORRIBLE! The screaming is horrible...its a pain scream and until your a mother you won't understand how that scream makes your heart stop. Its like being on a rollercoaster right as you go down a big hill and your stomach is in your throat...thats what that scream does. The pain is so bad for her that when she sees me she still screams. Usually the crying will stop as soon as your baby sees you but not when they are teething. Even when you hold them as tight as you can and tell them "it's ok kenzie mommy is here baby everything is ok" and no change still that pain scream. I thought my heart had been broken before but its nothing compared to this. I want to cry and scream with her but of course I can't because then she will just get more upset so all I can do is hold her and sit in our chair and rock her until she finally calms down enough to swallow some meds and then drift to sleep. Of course I can't fall back asleep because I'm dreading that in four hours when the tylenol wears off it will be the same heart stopping scream again.

I hate teething...any tips at all on how I can make her be in less pain would be wonderful.

We finally decided its time!

So Jake and I love each other very much, so much we live together and have a baby together. We skipped the whole "wedding/marriage" thing because I had a bad experience with it and Jake.... well Jake is Jake and was fine when I said I was in no rush to get married. We have decided that it is time to make our lives a little more offical so.....drum roll please....


WE ARE GETTING MARRIED


July 18th somewhere in Georgia. I'm so excited and so is my mother...we can't wait to go dress shopping. I'm dead set on a dress designed by Anjolique, these are the most amazing dresses I have ever seen and I'm so excited to go try them on. I don't have my ring yet but don't worry it has been designed and in the process of becoming my ring! It won't be ready for like two months but in the interest of having my dream wedding I can't wait two months to start planning. This is going to be a summer full of weddings and I LOVE weddings!

Crying!

Kenzie never cries, the pasts couple weeks though thats all I have heard. I am literally about to pull all my hair out. It would be so nice if she took a normal nap to give me a break but thats not happening. Seriously if this keeps going on like this I will be in a mental hospital within a month.

Resolutions!

1. Have more me time (I am always with Kenzie and when she is napping I am cleaning/folding clothes, cleaning the apartment, paying bills, etc. I need to spend at least an hour a day on me whether I take a bubble bath, paint my nails, read a book anything that is all about me)

2. Learn how to cook different dishes (I always hated making food but now I have grown to enjoy it. I only ever cook like 4 different dinners so I want to learn new ones)

3. Start writing a book (I have always loved reading and when I moved back to Georgia from Utah I had this amazing idea for a book but I never made time to write it)

4. Enroll in a yoga class (Growing up I was hardcore into gymnastics. I could put my body into any position but now I'm old and my body can't bend like it use too so I want to gain my flexability back also I hear it is super relaxing and thats always a plus)

5. Enroll Kenzie and I into a Mommy and Me swimming class (You can start these when babies are 9 months old. I would love for Kenz to learn how to swim so young plus I think it would be a great bonding time for us.)

6. Feel more comfortable with my body (I don't want to say loose weight or get back into shape because I say that every year and I never do. This way I can work on everything like my attitude towards myself and also working out)


I have decided this year is going to be amazing for Jake and I. I am so tired of just letting life happen to us instead of taking charge, this year will be different. I am the happiest I have been in such a long time. I have an amazing boyfriend and an amazing daughter.

Christmas!

Christmas was not as horrible as I thought it was going to be. It actually was very stress free. Our Christmas started on Christmas Eve morning at Jake's moms house. We went over and opened presents and then ate a very yummy breakfast. It was lots of fun, his grandparents were there as well as her sister, her boyfriend and her two kids.

That night we went to PF Changs for dinner with my family. This was AMAZING...it is my favorite place in the whole world. My Dad ordered ordered the whole menu times two (not really but pretty close) and the food was to die for. Our waiter on the other hand was not but oh well who really wants to work on Christmas Eve anyway. After dinner we went back home to put Kenz to bed but first we opened up our Christmas. We will not do it like that next year because of Santa of course but Jake and I felt like it didn't matter this year. Jake's stepmom who I love dearly got Kenzie this beautiful tea set and this mermaid doll that I fell in love with but Jake said it was not worth as much as it cost. (Betty understands my taste for amazing things and didn't want Kenzie to miss out on this doll).

On Christmas morning we went to my parents house to open up presents. Dad's must have done something amazing at work because all of us were over the top spoiled. Jake and I needed clothes badly so we got tons and tons of clothes and Kenzie got so many toys. My brother Michael and sister-in-law Marilyn came down and my sister also was home so it was really cool to all be together. After breakfast Kenzie and I took a nap then we went to Jake's Grandparents for lunch. It was so fun to visit with everyone. His grandparents are good ol' southerners so I feel right at home. After that we went back home to put all of our presents away and take another nap. Kenzie was tired.

For dinner we went his other Grandparents house and ate more food opened more presents then went home.

The next morning I woke up sick as a dog. From Friday to Wednesday I could not keep anything down. It was horrible but on Thursday I woke up craving a crazy taco from La Cazeula (I have no idea how to spell it). I have no idea how many times I was asked if I was pregnant but just so I am clear NO I AM NOT PREGNANT!!! My poor little grandma was like the 50 person to ask me one day and I went off asking her in she wanted to see the proof I was on my period. She kindly declined while saying she was sorry. I felt so horrible. Now Jake is sick but he just has sinus issues. Kenzie had her 6 month check up. She is 27 inches long (she is in 75th percent for height) and 15.2 lbs. She also got shots and this time she was a champ. She cried for like two seconds and then was laughing again. Her doctor is so cute always saying she has never seen a happier baby. I truly was blessed Kenzie is amazing always smiling and laughing she only cries as a last resort to something.

For New Years Jake and I stayed home put the baby to bed, watched a movie then were in bed asleep by 9:30! I feel so old but the holidays made me exhausted!

I hope everybody had a great christmas and new year. I'm so exicted for the start of 2009 its going to be an amazing year for my little family.