18 month check up!

Yesterday I went to Kenzies 18 month check up. My child never crys when she gets shots and its always the same guy who does them. This time (it just worked out I was there by myself) as soon as Kenz saw the MA she flipped out...literally he stepped into the waiting room called her name and she started screaming and grabbing onto me. At first it was funny because it was so not normal for her and I figured she would chill once she realized I was going back with her. NO I was wrong she screamed until he walked out of the room and when he walked back in it started all over again. Anyways he did her height, weight, and head measurment and left. Doctor B came in and asked me about her eating. My child NEVER eats like ever. So when she was born she was in the 50% for weight then she dropped to 25% then to 15% then to 10% and now as of yesterday she is in the 10%. Not good! She has not lost any weight but she is not gaining at all. Dr. B told me to start giving her whole milk any time she is thirsty and pediasure once a day and she has to take this special multi-vitamin to make her hungry. CRAZY i know! Kenzie is only 20.8 pounds at 18 months old thats still 12 month clothing sizes :( anyways Jake and I will do our best with helping her pack on the pounds! BUTTER here we come!

Christmas 09

This Christmas all three of us got so spoiled. I just want to start by saying just how much I love my family and extended family. Sometimes I complain about them and the things they say or do that I probably take the wrong way BUT they are so awesome and I am so lucky for every single one of them. I am so glad I married somebody whose family has accepted me for me and welcomed me with open arms into their family. Also I am so thankful for my parents who get the brunt of my bad attitude/lack of sleep for not holding it against me.

Ok so to the fun stuff...last years Christmas Jake and I were so so so broke! I'm not kidding I have never been that broke even when I was in college and spending every spare penny on clothes instead of food. This Christmas was the extreme opposite. Like I have said before Jake has a very awesome job that gets even better when the economy is bad. We are so so blessed that this is how it has worked out for us. Anyways last year we spent like 5 dollars on Kenzie so this year Jake really let me go overboard to make up for last year. We decided Kenzie's big santa present would be a kitchen set. I had been looking for months and months at hundreds of different ones and I finally found one that I fell in love with. Its wooden and painted in pastel pink, greens, and yellows! Its is so pretty! Jake and my dad set it up the night before so when Kenzie woke up the next morning it would be all ready for her. She LOVED it...a little too much. She would not open any presents because she wanted to play. She also got lots of webkinz (they are little stuffed animals that are the perfect size for her) tons of clothes, food for her kitchen, bath toys, shoes and books. From her Mimi and James (Jakes mom and her boyfriend) she got a little vaccumm, doll house, clothes, and some cute shoes. From my parents she got clothes, extra rooms for the doll house, a farm set, more bath toys, blocks, and a water baby. From Papa and Grammy (Jakes dad and step mom) she got this awesome table just her size with four chairs to go with it, some building blocks, and more things to go with her kitchen. Also Jakes grandparents each got her a riding toy. She was spoiled rotten this christmas. I love it cause we play all day with her toys together and it is so much fun.

Jake and I did each others stocking he got a bunch of tools in his and I got jewelry and headbands in mine. Headbands are my new obsession! I also got two nicole lee purses and a few pairs of shoes from my parents and in laws! We also got a garmin YAY! Jake got tons and tons of tools and a tool box for his truck!

The best part of the whole Christmas 2009 experience was the dinners. It is so fun to just sit around a table and talk to everybody. Jake and I are so busy we hardly ever get around to seeing the great-grandparents and his cousins so I really enjoy being able to hang out with them. Also when there is tons of good food you know everybody is gonna be in a good mood which means there is gonna be tons of laughing.

I really enjoyed Christmas but I'm glad its over and its back to our normal routine. Today Kenzie and I spent the day just playing and laughing. She says so many words now its crazy. If you ask her if she wants to take a nap she will look at me and say noooo! Its cute I love that child to death! I hope everybody had a good Christmas and hope you all have a safe New Year!

Christmas party...Kenzie loved this Santa...he gave her a doll

Christmas Eve morning at Jake's moms house!
Brodeur kids minus Mike before Christmas Eve dinner
Japanese Dinner! AMAZING
LOVERS!
Kitchen Love
TUNNEL

My amazing little family!

Santa

This is what happens when you have a 1 1/2 year old who is very attached to her mother! The big man in red is a little scary. What you don't see in these pictures is me having to hide behind a tree so Kenzie would not see me and start screaming! HAHA lets hope next week's Santa pictures are a little better. Maybe she won't be so shocked when mommy hands her to the jolly old guy!

Ms. Scrooge!

This is not a happy post...its full of anger and self-pitty so if your not in the mood for an angry read I suggest you stop reading now!

I am so SICK and TIRED of being told what to do and when to do it. I am an adult now with a husband and a daughter. I take care of my own family and NEVER ask for help so when it comes to my familys decisions about Christmas its nobody place but MY OWN to make those decisions. I am so tired of having to give up what I want to do to make everybody else happy. For heavens sakes I just want to be excited about this for Kenzie. All I want to is to see her get excited and I feel like its always gonna be taken away from me. I am at a point where I want to move as far away as possible because I feel like thats the only way to get my way. There are some people in our lives who are amazing to us and tell Jake and I "Do what you need to do you won't hurt our feelings" and I am so thankful for that but right now all I want to do is cry because once again I feel like the whole Christmas spirit and excitment is being taken away from me. I have decided to become scrooge and bow out of all the Christmas activities. I feel like the only way to not get hurt is to just not care so all I am going to be involved in is buying Kenzies presents and watching her open them on Christmas morning.

High School

So last night Jake's good friend Rob came home for a short visit. Rob decided that a bonfire with the old "group" would be the best plan for a get together. When Jake told me this I was less than thrilled....its really cold outside and we were gonna be out past our bedtime. I sucked it up because I know how much seeing Rob was to Jake so I went with a bad attitude. We picked up Chris and Nicole which put me in a better mood and went to Robs from there. I was still a little annoyed at the whole bonfire aspect of things I mean come on were we still in high school? I went and had a great time. It was so much fun to see how happy Jake was with the whole gang back together. I heard all these CRAZY stories about all the stupid things they did. I also met lots of parents that knew Jake when he was growing up and it made me so proud when they told me how amazing he was. Of course I already know how amazing he is because I married him! Anyways I thought it was going to be a horrible night but before I knew it, it was 11:00 and I never yawned once. This made me think about my high school days and how much fun they were. I have moved around my whole life so I never really had a strong group of friends that grew up together but my two best friends who are from different states are still a huge huge part of my life and I am so thankful for them. I would not be who I am today without you two and I love you both so so much!

Crazy Thanksgiving!

I was so excited for Thanksgiving because my seester was coming into town. Its so funny how growing up we HATED each other and now not a day goes by where we don't talk on the phone for at least 10 minutes. Also my brother and Marilyn were coming down as well as my Aunt Sharon and Ed, Matthew and Grandma and Grandpa. Everybody got in Wednesday and we all stayed under one roof. Thats right 15 people all in my parents house. As soon as Sharon and Ed got here, they took away my child and would not let me come near her for a few hours so they could have alont time with her. I was in need of a break so I glady let them take the reins! Thanksgiving was a lot of fun. Started out by watching the parade and then of course the dog show and then ate at my partents. As soon as we were done eating Jake Kenzie and I went to his Memaw and Pawpas house for more dinner. It was so much fun to just hang out with everybody. Friday I was tempted to go to the mall but decided it would be way too busy for Kenzie. (I have watched one too many Lifetime movies)Everybody left on Saturday except for Mike, Marilyn, and Tricky. That night Mike Marilyn Jake and I went to the GA vs. TECH game and it was amazing. It was at GA TECH and 75% of the people there were GA fans. I don't really like football the only reason I am a dawgs fan is one who doesn't like a bulldog they are friggin cute! Two Red and black are colors that look good on anybody and Three Jake is a die hard GA fan so to keep the peace I have adopted them as my team. Anyways it was an awesome game and so much fun. 24 - 30 GO DAWGS!!!

On a different note, I have decided to go back to work. I will be working full time and going to school full time. I have been going back and forth with this decison for a while now but I know its what I need to do. I am just not a stay at home mom. For anybody who thinks that it is really easy to stay at home with your baby, you are SO wrong. It is the hardest but most amazing thing I have ever done. Your child is 100% dependent on you for everything and I think as time goes on some people just loose themselves in it. I am somebody who has lost my sense of self so I think it is best to go back to work and talking with people who can talk back. I am a worker...I got my first job the day I turned 16 I'm like my dad...its just in my blood. If I find out its too difficult to go to school and work I will of course put school first but I'm hoping it will work out. There is this amazing job at an OBGYN a few minutes away and it would be perfect for what I want to get into. I would learn so much and then when I graduate hopefully the doctors there can get me a job as a labor and delivery nurse. It would just be awesome if everything works out. I know Jake is still very on the fence about it. He wants me to stay with Kenzie and focus on school but he also realizes I need to be happy. Who knows maybe when it comes down to it I won't be able to leave her. Just looking at daycares online made me cry. I just need to find myself again.