WEDDING

I have been a lazy blogger since the wedding. Actually we went on the honeymoon then came home and started moving so I have a good excuse.


The night before the wedding my Dad got me, Carrie, and Courtney a hotel room so I didn't have to see Jake the day of the wedding. It was so fun to have a girls night we got ice cream and pranked called exboyfriends until 2:30 in the morning. It was like I was in middle school again. That morning we had to get up at like 6:30 (I woke up at 5:30 because I was so excited) and we had to be at the hair salon at 8:00. I had 8 girls in my bridal party plus me and only one lady was doing all of our hair. She was AMAZING! I have never met anybody who can do updo's so quickly and so beautiful. She was so awesome. The salon was closed for the day so it was all of my bridesmaids and me, it was really fun to just hang out all morning. After hair we went to Forrest Hills to get ready. At this point I started to get so nervous. One of my bridesmaids (Kelli) did everybodys makeup and she did such a good job. It seemed like we were only there for 10 minutes when the photographer and florist showed up. We took pictures from 4-5:15 and then I was told to leave so Jake would not see me. My dad and I went to meet up with the carriage (yes total dream come true I pulled up in a horse drawn carriage!!!) and started back to where the ceremony was taking place. I was expecting my Dad and I to have a nice father daughter moment but instead the driver started talking in detail about artifical insemination on a horse. Yes it was so gross and it made me want to puke even more. After what felt like FOREVER (it was only 20 minutes) we finally got the green light to go to the garden. When dad and I were walking down the aisle...I can not explain the love I felt for Jake. The ceremony was short and to the point (like ten minutes if that) and then I got to kiss my HUSBAND! I know normal wedding kisses are supposed to be proper but sorry he was so hot in his tux call me a redneck but I had to give him a real kiss. After that we rode off in our just married horse carriage and then went back to take pictures.


The reception was beautiful the food was amazing and my cake was the prettiest wedding cake I have ever seen. Everything was perfect. And all the people who had been riding my case about the money that was being spent on the wedding finally got it. This was the wedding I had been planning since I was 6 years old playing with my barbies. It was so fun my friends and family and I danced all night. A good friend of mine told Kelli "This is the most fun wedding I have been too and there isin't any alcohol" It was so fun....I would not change a thing about it. Jake and I did leave an hour early...we were exhausted. That night we got to stay in a luxury cabin on the resort that Carrie and Courtney decorated with hundreds of candles and hershey kisses. It was amazing!


For our honeymoon we went to Panama City in Florida. We stayed at the Marriott Resort...I have never been to a hotel that nice. There were like 6 different pools employees all over the grounds so if you even looked up from what you were doing they were at your side asking if they could help with anything. The first day we just relaxed and hung by the pool and went to Japanese for dinner (YUM my favorite) and did the Ripleys believe it or not. The next day we swam with the dolphins! Our guide was amazing and so much fun. I jumped in one time but the no more after that because at one point he pointed out a shark. I don't know about you but I like all my limbs attached to me. So while everybody else was in the ocean playing with the dolphins I stayed in the boat taking pictures for everybody. While we were there we went shopping, spent a lot of time at the beach and pool, saw two movies, went to the zoo, ate amazing food, and spent a lot of quality time together. It was nice to just be me and Jake without our baby. Don't get me wrong we missed her like crazy but sometimes you really do need a break to just be with your husband.


After we came home we started packing up our stuff to move in with my parents so we can start looking for a house. Our rent was crazy high we could buy a nice house and our payments would be lower than our rent. Our lease is up this month so we decided not to renew. Hopefully we will only be at my parents for a few months but we don't want to be rushed into buying a house. Prices are so cheap right now so I'm so excited to start looking. Now that the wedding is done and over with my main focus is our house.


I promise not to be so lazy about writing from now on we are pretty much all settled in so I don't have an excuse now.


I will post an all pictures post soon so you all can see our wedding pictures!

10 DAYS

I have come to understand that a wedding is pretty much about everybody else but you. Here I am trying to plan my dream wedding and everybody has some kind of say about it. For example, " You two are going to regret this wedding instead of using that money to buy a house" News Flash People: The way I decide to spend my money is none of your business plus I'm pretty sure your name is not on my bank account so you have no idea how much money we have saved up for a house! My parents have been pretty amazing when it comes to this wedding so I'm not complaining about them at all in this post. If it were not for my mother and father I would probably be in Mexico with a changed name so nobody could find me. Every night for the past week when it has come time to go to bed I lay there in bed eyes wide open thinking about EVERYTHING and when I think about everything I feel like there is a 1000 pound weight on my chest. The other night for example I stayed up until 1:00 watching Degrassi because I felt so sick. Carrie keeps telling me my problem is I'm not being enough of a bitch so thats why everybody is walking all over me. Complaing about this and that. I don't want to be a bitch though all I want is for everybody I care about in my life to be under the same roof dancing around like idiots celebrating Jake Kenzie and I. I don't understand why people are trying their hardest to make it as difficult for me as possible. These are supposed to be the most exciting days of my life and all I find myself doing is laying around feeling sorry for myself and taking benadryl to make myself fall asleep. Really honestly I just want this month to be over so maybe my life will go back to normal. How sad is that....sorry I know this is a debbie downer post and I vowed to never complain on this thing but I had to just let it out.

STRESS

Last night I was laying in bed thinking about how perfect it was that everything that needed to be done for the wedding is done....but then I really started to think and I was very wrong. I have not even gotten our marriage license yet...Kenzie's dress is two sizes too big and I need to locate my social security card and I need to pay my hottie gyno a visit (yes...i have a small crush on my gyno) all before the wedding that is happening in 17 days! I'm freaking out. I was up all night with that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and I have not been able to eat anything today. To make matters worse my stye FINALLY went away but I bet it will come back because I am so stressed. I made myself a handy to do list so hopefully everything will get done. I am so ready for the wedding to just be here so I can finally enjoy all the hard work!

Victoria's Secret

So yesterday I was on an "adventure" with Kelli (Jake was riding motorcycles with his father) when we decided it was time to go to good ol Victoria's Secret to find some sexy lingerie! I didn't get any at my bridal shower so I decided I would take some of that money to find some sexy stuff. We walked in not having any idea how this was going to be my LUCKY day! They are having their Semi-Annual sale so all their sale stuff was an additional 50% off! I walked out with three amazing pieces and two hottie thigh-high sets for only fifty-six dollars and some change! YAY! AMAZING!

Bridal Shower

So when most women get stressed they loose weight...I on the other hand get zits and wonderful STYES!!!! The day before my bridal shower I woke up with a stye. I used to get them all the time but since I have been with Jake they went away. I knew I still had meds left so I started my compresses and meds. I was hoping that it would go away by the end of the day and that night I went to bed feeling very confident I would be fine! WRONG the day of my shower I woke up and my eye was swollen shut! Never have I had one this bad. It was awful...Jake looked at me and said BABE....I will take Kenzie all day today and you do what you need to do to fix that! HAHAHA So I stayed in bed with a hot compress....after I while it went down and I didn't look like the elephant man any more.

My bridal shower was a lot of fun! We played games ate amazing food and cake and of course opened lots of presents! We got a ton of stuff...and this lady made a cool "practice bouquet" out of the ribbons that were on my presents! The best part was I got the quilt and a few pillows for our bed spread spread that I had wanted. I also got money so as soon as the shower was over I took the money and got the rest of our bed spread....or so I thought! We got home washed the sheets set it all up and realized I forgot the dust ruffle! So I am going today to get that!

Thanks to everybody who came out and supported me I had so much fun!

Me with two out of my eight bridesmaids!
Can you tell I was excited about this present?
Me, Mom, Colleen, and Kelli! We love our MOMMIES!
There is nothing better than good friends in your life!

Kenzies Birthday!

Kenzie turned one on the 24th but we had her party on the 20! She is our little bug so it was only fair to have a butterfly birthday party for her. I went a little crazy on making her party really cool even though she would not remember any of it. I kept telling Jake after the third day in a row of carrying in three party city bags from the car that even if she did not remember her party, I would so I HAD to make it a big deal. We ordered 7 large pizzas with chips and dip and then of course we had her cake! We got a big cake for everybody but she had her own "smash" cake. I have NEVER seen a kid go at cake the way she did....she ate it all! Literally there was nothing on the floor and only crumbs left on her highchair tray. Everybody kept telling me to take it away from her but the cool thing about being the mom is NOBODY can tell you what to do when it comes to your kid. Jake and I knew she was having a good time and seriously when else in her life is she going to be able to eat that much cake. (Plus she is only a few ounces away from being able to sit in the big car seat so we figured the more cake the more weight!) After her cake I gave her a bath while all the other kids hit the butterfly pinata. After that we opened presents. Kenzie wanted nothing to do with ripping the paper off her presents so I had all the other kids that were there help her out. She got some awesome stuff....lots of babies(she LOVES baby dolls) a music table...and some other really fun things that even I enjoy playing with. We had so much fun at her party! Thanks to everyone that was a part of it!

someone once told me....

So I think it was junior year of high school I had my first real "love" or so I thought at that time. I look back now and realize just because you like to kiss somebody doesn't mean your in love but that is beside the point of this blog. Anyways I was so in love with marc when we broke up I literally thought it was the end of the world. For days I didn't eat, shower, sleep, or talk. The only thing I could do was cry. I remember talking to one of my good friends boyfriends I can't remember his exact words but he said something like this. When you feel like you have hit rock bottom Kendra the only place you can go is up and when you do start to feel better you will be twice as happy as before. Sometimes when the baby takes her nap during the day and I have nothing to do I will look back at my life and think about well what if I had done this different or what if I had never even met that person. Through all the heartache and pain I have felt in the 21 years of my life it was all worth it. I would not change a thing because I don't think Jake and I would have met if I changed one little thing.

Last night I had dinner ready for him when he got home after a 10 1/2 hour day at work. We sat down and laughed the entire time. After he got up to do dishes. He is amazing...what guy will do dishes after a really hard day at work when all their wife did that day was go shopping for their daughters birthday party. I told him to go in Kenzies room and play with her but he said he wanted to help me. After that was all cleaned up I realized I had not swept or vaccumed my floors in about two weeks so I told him to take a shower while I cleaned. He again said no babe you sweep and I will vaccum. I told him to put Kenzie in her bouncy thing and put in a movie for her and he said he wanted to hold her while he vaccumed the floors. After everything was cleaned and Kenzie was in bed we just layed in bed and talked. I was looking at him tell me a story at one point and it just really clicked....everything in my life happened the way it did to prepare me for where I am at now. I have had two real loves in my life....the first one didn't work obviously and all the time I wish it just never happened because of the pain it still will cause me today but if I didn't have that relationship I would have no idea how to make this one work. I also would not be as grateful for the little things Jake does. Jake is so amazing and I'm so in love with him. Even when we fight with each other when we get in bed to go to sleep he will always cuddle up to me and tell me he loves me. I can't wait to marry him in my dream wedding in 22 days. He is everything I have been waiting for since I was a little girl dreaming up my wedding. I'm so excited and grateful he is who he is and I'm so glad he is the father of my child. I would not change anything about our lives or how things happened.